I want a baby

I had a thought the other day that all my friends are either at the stage of getting married or having children.  Then I asked myself: "would I have kids if I were straight?".  I thought deeply about it and I came to an undeniable conclusion: YES.

This feeling was confirmed while watching "The Biggest Loser" and one of the contestants broke down after finding out that his wife was pregnant with his child.  Just seeing his reaction brought me to tears.  I was so happy for him.  At that same time I was vicariously feeling what it would be like to possibly become a dad.

I know that these days there are many options for gay men.  But seriously, the biggest factor that puts me off going down those paths is how difficult it would be for the child living in the world that exists today as people found out he/she had two gay fathers (or just one).  A miracle would need to happen before I would change my mind.

I don't know.  Sometimes I look at people and think, "he/she doesn't deserve to have a child".  Straight people have nothing stopping themselves from immortality, regardless of how good the would be as parents.  There isn't a pre-requisite to have a kid (unless you're adopting of course).  Yet two very capable and loving parents of the same gender are judged by anything but their ability to be good parents.  I really don't think I could live with that sort of judgement.  Especially in the public light.

Anyway, I think I would make a great dad.

-Forky